(Today's post by Jacob Moore)
1 Samuel 13
“Samuel said, ‘What have you done?’ And Saul said, ‘When I saw that the people were scattering from me, and that you did not come within the days appointed, and that the Philistines had mustered at Michmash, I said, “Now the Philistines will come down against me at Gilgal, and I have not sought the favor of the Lord.” So I forced myself, and offered the burnt offering.’ And Samuel said to Saul, ‘You have done foolishly. You have not kept the command of the Lord your God, with which he commanded you. For then the Lord would have established your kingdom over Israel forever. But now your kingdom shall not continue. The Lord has sought out a man after his own heart, and the Lord has commanded him to be prince over his people, because you have not kept what the Lord commanded you.’”
1 Samuel 13:11-14 (ESV)
I’m trying to go back to school this semester; it looks like it’s going to happen. Right now I’m just waiting on the financial aid department to finish up with my FAFSA and stuff. They’re taking forever and registration starts in a couple of days. This coming down to the wire stuff stresses me out and makes me incredibly anxious.
On the way home from work the other day my mother asked me to stop and buy some food; I did. And when I tried to leave, the car wouldn’t start. Instantly my patience was gone and I was furious. Within twenty minutes I was driving back home. But that little stall had me angry for hours.
One time when I was between the ages of one and twenty-two, I disobeyed my parents. Probably more than a thousand times.
Anxiety, impatience, disobedience. Three almost daily occurrences in my life that I so often fail to recognize as sin. And when I do remember they are sins, I subconsciously consider them “small” sins.
Anxiety, impatience disobedience. I believe those are the three sins that ended Saul’s reign and prepared the throne for David.
As the Philistines gathered, Saul’s men began to leave and Saul grew anxious. Samuel didn’t show up when he said he would and Saul grew impatient. Finally, Saul offered the burnt offering hoping to seek the favor of the Lord, something he was commanded not to do.
Three “small” sins and Saul loses his kingdom, a kingdom that was supposed to last forever. This chapter reminded me that no sin is small, and that each and every one requires repentance.