(Today's post by Jacob Moore)
1 Samuel 21:10-22:23
17 And the king said to the guard who stood about him, “Turn and kill the priests of the Lord, because their hand also is with David, and they knew that he fled and did not disclose it to me.” But the servants of the king would not put out their hand to strike the priests of the Lord.18 Then the king said to Doeg, “You turn and strike the priests.” And Doeg the Edomite turned and struck down the priests, and he killed on that day eighty-five persons who wore the linen ephod. 19 And Nob, the city of the priests, he put to the sword; both man and woman, child and infant, ox, donkey and sheep, he put to the sword. (1 Samuel 22:17-19)
Every time I read about the relationship of Saul and David, I feel as though I focus on Saul and learn how not to be. Here we go again.
Usually, when I hate a person (or when I dislike someone so much it’s close to what I think hatred is) I make myself the victim. I mean, that’s why I’m hating the person I’m hating, because he or she has hurt me; and because he or she has hurt me, I have the right to hate him or her. Two things happen after a person hurts me: hatred and justification. Without even thinking about it, I “hate” a person and (in my head) it’s completely okay to hate that person. And since it’s been okayed, any action that comes from that hatred, like the hatred, is okay and justified. Clearly, as seen in 1 Samuel 22:17-19, this is evil.
Normally, when in the midst of hating, I do things blindly and without thinking (which, like previously stated, is okay and justified in my mind), and when my head has finally cooled and I look back to see the damage and pain I’ve caused, I feel deep remorse and my heart aches for what I’ve done. Saul put to death an entire city because a priest in the city helped his enemy. “Strike the priests of the Lord,” Saul said. Come on, Saul! Can’t you see how evil your actions are? Do you have any idea how bad your heart is going to hurt when you turn around?
What can we learn from Saul today? Maybe we should stop saying, “Hate is a strong word,” and start saying, “Hate is a deadly word, therefore keep it away from the heart.” Saul’s goal in life was not to kill the men and women of Nob; Saul killed them in hatred and anger, and I betcha you it was sort of like punching a hole in the wall (you know, you’re just so full of rage you gotta hit something), because the man Saul hated was not even among the people of Nob! For those of you with hate for another (I know for a fact that there are plenty of you out there, because several times Trey has told me humans read this blog, and humans hate), I pray you seek the Lord and ask Him to remove it.