(Today's post by Marc Cannon)
1 Samuel 15
Life is a funny thing, ya know? For the past 37 years I have been trying to figure out what exactly it is that God wants from me. In my spiritual growth over the past couple of years and even in the times when I’ve backtracked, to what has seemed like Square One, the main theme in my life has been trying to find joy. There are a lot of things that make me happy for a split sec – golf, fishing, cooking, for example. And there are things that I’ve delved in to try and curb the depression I spent most of my adult life marred in. Alcohol, “relationships”, trying to make a Go’zillion dollars. But none of those things have ever given me true joy.
When the Lord instructed Saul to destroy the Amalekites from top to bottom he meant just that. Destroy them. Not just beat’m up real bad, take their lunch money and go on home. He meant kill them and destroy anything that had a remote hair of relevance to that clan of people. These people after all, were the people who trounced and tried to destroy the Israelites any chance they got. For Saul not to obey God’s wishes fully grieved the Lord. And to make matters worse, Saul built himself up because he looked at his victory over the Amalekites as great, even if he didn’t follow the Lord’s directive to a “T”. His sacrifices to the Lord were for nil…I can’t say for certain, but I will venture to guess that Saul and I have faced the exact same feeling of angst and hollowness by not being obedient to the Lord.
I’ve seen a lot of this in my life. I bet each of you can relate as well. If at any time in your walk you have said, “Lord, I’ll fight your battle but ______” you have been where Saul was. Time after time I do something where I’ve thought to myself, “You know what? I bet the Lord is so proud of me because what “I” just did was awesome!” or, “Lord, I’ll fight for you ONLY if I don’t have to give up my weekend football trips in the Fall”. There have been so many times when I just give a piece of my heart to the Lord and that small piece of sacrifice isn’t what the Lord has asked. Some of those things I have listed above have been “Amalekites” in my life. When the Lord has asked me to destroy them, to relinquish them as equal to Him, or to hand Him my heart full, I have said, “You know what Lord…I’ll work on it and you can have some of it, but not all of it.” It’s a hard thing to comprehend, for me at least, to think that I matter enough to the God of the Universe that he grieves when I’m not following Him. When my heart isn’t in it, when I’m not being obedient.
Those times are when I have experienced no joy in my daily walk or service to Him. Why? Because he asked for the entire pie not just a sliver. He wants my entire heart and when you give your entire heart to Him that’s where the Joy that so many of us seek resides.
God wants ALL of me…He wants me ALL IN!
Today, examine yourself and ask the Lord if there is anything in your life that you haven’t fully given to Him.
How has not fully destroying your “Amalekites” affected your life?
Is there anything in your life you’re overly prideful of when you should be giving the Lord the Glory?
Are you All In?